Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Footprints in the Sand
Do some days ever feel like you're trudging. through. sand. the. whole. day? Each step effortful. Slower. I crashed at noon with both the kids, where we all indulged in a blissful two-hour nap. Later in the afternoon the thermometer read 101.4. Achy. Lethargic. You can make it through days like this, though, when you've got someone to hold your hand. I see that love in the bright eyes of Talmage when he asks, "Mommy happy?" I see it in the delighted eyes of Sydney when she realizes that those things down there are legs and she can stand up on them. I see it in the fingers of Briton as he picks he gee-tar, lulling Sydney to sleep, so I can rest just a little longer before church duty calls. Thanks, family, for getting me through this day!
Monday, May 19, 2008
A Happy Buoy and a Mourning Mom
We needed a fun activity tonight (above),
to distract us from the day's grief (below):
An Eulogy
Fraulein Biff
Born: May 1, 2006
Died: May 18 (or 19), 2008
Fraulein Biff left us for the Great Chicken Roost some time between yesterday afternoon and this morning. I went out to the coop to give the chickens some kitchen scraps and Lafawnduh came scurrying out. Oddly, Fraulein Biff didn’t move a feather from where she lay in the corner under the coop. I thought she was cooling off in the shade. Except she wasn't breathing. I got closer to look and could tell right away that she was dead. Dead. I couldn’t even admit it at first. How could she be dead? She was in the prime of chickenhood. With daylight hours increasing, she was up to one large, pastel blue-green egg almost every day.
Fraulein Biff was poultry emotion. The way she hunched down and let us stroke her feathers; her quick scuttle to the opening screen door in hopes of kitchen scraps. I fondly wiped her poop off the deck. Briton happily raked the yard back to order after she’d been scratching under the trees for a day. Talmage’s first word was “chicken”.
I didn’t dare touch the fowl corpse, at first. When I did, it was with a gloved hand, angling and tugging her out from under the coop. That was the most difficult part of the process. I stuffed the stiff bird into a Winco paper sack, noticing her closed eyelids. I’d never seen them closed before. Out of respect, I placed her in the garage so the neighbor cats couldn’t eat her. And what do you do with a dead chicken? Over the phone, at work, Briton said, “Fire up the grill!”
Fraulein Biff lived a full, if short life.
As an araucana chick, she freely roamed on the Baxter Estate. She was very sociable, spending the long summer hours under the grape arbor with any one of several Wyandottes, Leghorns, or Feather Footed Chocins. Of the 28 chicken brood, only she and Lafawnduh made the cut to move to the “new” house. She adapted well to her new surroundings.
When Briton came home, he looked me in the eye and said, “You can’t hide the truth!” For some odd reason, I couldn’t stop smiling. How unfeeling could I be? In the face of such a loss, I found myself grinning from ear to ear. Because although I will miss Fraulein’s curious eyes looking into our living room through the sliding glass door, I’m not going to miss worrying about her being cooped up, or, on days I let her out, worrying about the safety of the Great Cantaloupe and the other plants struggling to get a foothold in the raised-bed garden. There will be less stress wondering if the neighbors are ready to call the HOA on us when the chickens are extra clucky in the early morning.
We loved you, Fraulein.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Sunday
Feast your eyes on these muffins made from some food storage stuff. As Talmage would say, "Delicious!"
Wheat Muffins
Makes 12 muffins
2 cups whole wheat flour
1 cup brown sugar (this is why they're so good)
1/4 tsp. salt
1 tsp. baking soda
1 cup milk (1/3 cup powered milk and 2/3 cup water)
1/2 cup margarine, melted (this is also why they're so good)
1 egg
1 tsp. vanilla
Mix dry ingredients together (if you're using powdered milk, mix dry milk with dry ingredients). Combine liquid ingredients and pour over dry ingredients. Stir just until moistened. Spoon into greased muffin tin. Bake at 350 degrees for 15 minutes.
Great grandma Barker's wheat grinder helped me grind the wheat. Now who will help me eat the muffins?
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Saturday
What you see there is one ambitious pruner. They say you can't kill an arborvitae, but Briton is going to try.
I also almost didn't go to the temple. A Spanish-speaking sister in the ward was going for the first time. Our RS President had asked anyone else in the presidency to come along and support this sister who would otherwise be alone. It came time for me to leave and I couldn't find my temple recommend. It's always with my temple bag. Except this time. I looked everywhere it could be, including Briton's suitcoat pockets. No recommend. I called the bishop. Twice. Busy. I decided to still go because, a) maybe my recommend had fallen out somehow last time I was at the temple and they had it in a Lost and Found, or b) the bishop's line wouldn't be busy once I got to the temple, or, c) I'd be sitting in the lobby, waiting for the Temple Recorder (or whoever) to come and talk to me and decide to casually put my hand in my skirt pocket and realize that the recommend was in there the whole time.
If you picked "c", then you're a really good test taker, 'cause I was trying to make the choices tricky. I'm happy I was able to go. Since the session was in Spanish, I got to read the closed caption (when I was awake).
Friday, May 16, 2008
Friday
After naps, The Bogus escorted us and friends to The River of Coolness That You Get To By Hiking Down A Long Road Because the Gate to the Campground Is Locked Due To Winter Flooding Cleanup, Lugging the Carseat with Infant Inside and Periodically Carrying A Toddler, Too, But You're Not About To Turn Around And Go Back Home Without Getting Your Feet Wet After Driving All That Way. The aforementioned River was refreshing and definitely worth the drive. Thanks, A!
Briton had his own fun outside today, too, with biking to and from work, plus an hour of Ultimate Frisbee in the cool, 90 degree evening air. Ah. The balmy Northwest. Who says it always rains in Portland?
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Thursday
Sydney and I are absent from any pictures, because for both of us, this day was a complete WASH!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Wednesday
Wednesday also means Briton's return. Talmage beaming ear to ear to see his dad again. His beaming reflecting my own. Plus, I know something Talmage doesn't: Briton has surprises. What dad doesn't come home with presents when he's been away? Growing up, it was always exciting to see what my dad's luggage produced. The gift seemed to depend on what airline or hotel he used. Southwest peanuts. Delta napkins. Holiday Inn soaps. True to my own upbringing, Briton showered us with free stuff he'd filched from the hotel. I got lotion and shampoo. Talmage got continental breakfast peanut butter packets. Life doesn't get any better.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Tuesday
Tuesday means trucks. We hung out at home most of the day. The garden beds are prepped. Heidi ... bring on the Cantaloupe Challenge.
We did leave the house twice. First, since my calling is in enrichment, I dutifully trucked us all over to Whole Foods for "Lunch Bunch". No one else showed. So Talmage, Sydney and I had a little spontaneous date and enjoyed an organic (read: expensive) lunch. Second outing was after dinner. Sydney was thrown into KidFit while Talmage and I went swimming at the community pool. He had a good time jumping off the edge of the pool into my arms. Except for the one time he jumped so far we ended up clobbering our faces together. If you ever want to know what a 34 pound high-speed, slippery projectile feels like landing on your nose, just ask.
Monday, May 12, 2008
Monday
Briton is in Dupont for three days. Only three days, but the countdown begins:
Monday means laundry. Four loads washed and folded and … put away! That sentence deserves an exclamation point, because the folding and the putting away rarely occur on the same day as the washing. Laundry Load and Gumption Level are inversely related. Usually, come bedtime, I swipe the mounding pile off the bed onto the floor. Except for today. I think I was trying to prove that I could hold down the fort while Briton is away. The laundry triumph could also be because Talmage slept until 8:45 a.m.
After naps I took T&S to KidFit so I could exercise. It’s $2.00 per kid for two hours. Worth every penny. Organic alphabet noodles and broccoli for dinner. One teaspoon of amoxicillin for Talmage’s ear infection. Books (“Chug, chug, chug. Puff, puff, puff…”). Brush teeth (“…just because you’re pulling freight”). Picture book Book of Mormon stories as a passing nod to FHE. Prayers (said by me, standing a foot away from the crib to avoid being hit by an irreverent, mad Talmage who did not want to go to bed) and we’ll call it a day. Sydney is asleep in the swing behind me.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Flower Child
And the first object he look'd upon, that object he became,
And that object became part of him for the day or a certain part of the day, Or for many years or stretching cycles of years.
The early lilacs became part of this child... (Whitman)
...And the early tulips, too.
Friday, May 09, 2008
"Do you know this photographer?"
On Sunday afternoon, still in our church get-up, we posed for our family of four foto. He snapped shots in rapid succession. We ordered online with Costco an enlargement on the one we liked the best. The next morning I went to pick it up and had this conversation:
Cashier: "Excuse me, do you know the photographer who took this picture?"
Me: "Yeah. It's my father-in-law."
Cashier: "He must have a really nice camera."
Me: "Yeah. It's a fancy one."
Cashier: "Oh. Well, I just had to ask because this order was tagged as a possible copyright infringement. You'll need to sign the form that says you know the photographer and it's okay to get reprints of his work."
I scurried home to re-tell the story to a beaming Laur. So, not only do we get a photo history any time we are together. We get a professional photo history. Thanks.
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Post-Partum Parties
Sonya and Sydney
Fine-twined Linen
February 24, 2008
Autumn and Leslie were here for a week to help out: they took Talmage to the zoo and on other outings; they got him out of his crib in the morning so I could either finish feeding Sydney or sleep just a little longer. They helped with holding and babysitting. Briton and I were able to go to ward temple night and out to eat on Friday night since they were happily here holding down the fort.
I feel really spoiled. Since little Sydney was born one month ago, family and friends have been helping out every day. For example, my mom not only filled the freezer with meals, she also pulled the refrigerator out from the wall, cleaned underneath it, and dusted the coils. Uh, yeah… I was going to get to that. … After the baby. Babies may come to the world with nothing but the skin on their backs, but they don’t remain that way for long. The Wilde’s just dropped off a box of baby clothes they got from the Stevens. Another sister in the ward came by with bins and bins of clothes. People have been a study in generosity. Sydney is set until she's 18! years!!!!
While You Were Sleeping
February 12, 2008
Sydney sleeps a good portion of the time. And when she is awake she is watchful and pleasant. Her crying and fussiness usually coincide with, what mom calls, “working on a poo”. We started giving her gas drops more frequently and I guess that helps. It’s hard to tell.
Sydney found her thumb a couple days ago. It’s the cutest thing on earth to see her sucking her thumb. She also likes the pacifier. Anyway, she nurses very efficiently – it takes about 5 minutes or so and she’s had a full feed.
Huge Blessings
February 3, 2008
Blog Stalking
Blog stalking has shamed me into compliance. As I read through friends' (both those real and those imagined) impressive blogs, I am thankful for their efforts because it helps me stay connected with them. And then I think of what a blog mooch I am - to be so one-sidedly involved in the blog world whilst our own blog sits in the Blog Cemetery. What follows is my attempt to bring it to life by cutting and pasting from my journal.
January 20, 2008
A pearl of wisdom I learned this past week: "If you're at the store, and you find a Thomas the Tank Engine toothbrush that plays a catchy tune, and you buy it, then, hey, it's your funeral." Because since it is catchy, it will. You push a button and the toothbrush plays a little ditty for 2 minutes. Most of the words are undecipherable. Talmage loves it. And his oral hygiene is thorough. I find myself going to sleep with the toothbrush song going through my head. Over and over. "Just because they're pulling freight..."
Sydney Ruth is due on January 22. I am anxious for her to come so I can get to know her. I’m scared about labor pain. I wonder when she will come. I feel extremely pregnant right now. When I drop things on the ground (often) or see something that needs to be picked up (often) it seems very far away. The exertion required to squat down and pick stuff up is monumental. Monumental enough, that this sentiment prevails: “Don’t worry about it, man. It’s gone.”
Talmage
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Water Works
We inherited a sprinkling system that came with the house. I tried to turning it on for the first time Saturday and learning the lines, circuits, etc. I did poorly learning the valves. I turned something that wasn’t supposed to be turned. –Snap. Run around to the other side of the house and close the main valve, quick!
After an hour of work with a pocket knife, vise-grip, and hammer I clogged the hole the way one might try to shove an oversized cork into a champagne bottle.
Then I was back to my original problem. Why could I hear the electric buzz of the solenoids and sound of flowing water in the pipes when circuit #3 was turned “on”, but see absolutely no water coming out anywhere in the yard? I double-checked the drain and bleed valves (or what I thought were...). Still no answer.
And that’s how I leave you. If you’re experiencing an unexpected water leak (as opposed to an expected one?), call me. It might be hooked up to my #3.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Happy Mother's Day
We enjoyed the new dimension of being parents on the occasion. How grateful we are to have Talmage, and his wonderful mom. Waffles, letting her sleep in, and a poem go a long way. Plus it was a beautiful day. We walked to our favorite park and set Talmage loose on the ducks and geese. His growling crawl was no match for their quacking waddle however. Picture an intense chase scene in slow-motion. He was still thoroughly content. Robin and I wear smiley beaks for the surprising and indescribable joy we're finding in parenthood.
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Block by Block
Talmage hit a couple developmental milestones this week. The first one I wasn't expecting at all, had never considered... Robin called me at work and exclaimed that Talmage was stacking blocks. This was a definite departure from his usual destructive performance with the blocks on the coffee table. It's fun to watch his concentration as he tries to manipulate a block and place it carefully upon another. For his second milestone, he enunciated his first audible word. He knows what it means and will say it whenever the time is right. His first word is (no joke) "chicken"
We visited Silver Falls, OR this past weekend--land of large and many waterfalls. Our ward had the Father/Son campout there and I played substitute dad for a couple boys. Robin and Talmage joined me the next day along with cousins from Corvallis and we enjoyed a short hike and picnic together.
Driving home I jumped into the large Walmart in Woodburn to purchase some badly needed socks. Inside a Mariachi band was playing live music--happy Cinco de Mayo.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Talmage Top(s) Ten (Months)

If you’re not Talmage’s grandparents, you probably won’t be interested in this submission—move on. This is more talk-about-your-kid time. I wanted to document some of the recent Talmage-10mo.-isms before they’re forgotten.
. We take showers with Talmage. So he knows what’s happening on the other side of the obscured glass door. Sometimes, or usually, when Talmage knows you’re in the shower he’ll crawl up to greet you by banging his palms on the shower door. I respond with a “palm bang” opposite his on the other side of the door. Yesterday, he started doing blowfishes.
. When Robin works her 12-hr Saturday shifts I get plenty time with my son, as I sometime say: Talmage and Briton, mono a mono. I’ve been out of the loop lately on what he eats, beyond the ‘sprinkle Cheerios on the high chair tray’ to keep him occupied. We’ve stopped stocking the Gerber goo, so you have to be more creative when deciding what to feed him. Yesterday afternoon I quandered (ie. was in a quandary)... and then remembered Robin saying he can eat bananas. I didn’t realize he was going to consume an entire banana right there.
. Talmage does well to play the part and put up with me sometimes. When putting him to sleep, I tried holding him in his darkened room and swaying side-to-side singing a lullaby. He began to feel limp on my shoulder and I knew it was near time for that risky move to lay him in the crib. As I was about to start, he suddenly reared up, lifted a superman fist to the stars and exclaimed “Rrraa!” Seeing he completely startled me, he grinned and gazed at me with conniving eyes. Oh boy, I thought, this is going to be harder than expected. But then he went limp again on my shoulder, as if to say, “C’mon daddy, I know you’re going to put me in that crib. Why don’t you just get on with it...” So I did and he went to sleep without a fuss.
. Talmage, perhaps like most babies, is incredibly fascinated with light, and sources of light. He loves to look at lights, see them go on and off, and try to touch them. He’s become quite an expert on the lights in our house, and the other night he shared with me some of his deep knowledge. We have a light fixture in the dining room, a basic three-lamp piece suspended from a chain. We also seldom have a table underneath, so you can walk
. Robin lets the chickens roam free in our backyard now. Talmage loves to stare at them, and growl.
. With the weather getting nicer, I’m starting to drive around with the windows down. The draft produced in backseat is pretty intense and Talmage loves getting his hair whipped around. When we’re stopped at a light to turn left, cars wiz by at high speeds on either side of us. Peering back at Talmage, I see his head turn quickly from side-to-side as he tries to get a glimpse of these new noise makers on the road.
. Our son has this red/blue outfit, like a one-sie but the bottom snaps down the legs part-way to form, uh, shorts. They’re like coveralls with legs cut just above the knee, and short sleeves (so not really like coveralls). The other day Talmage was motoring around, and crawling up on things as usual, in this outfit. The bottom half wasn’t snapped—at all—forming a priestly skirt look. In fact, it looked like he had joined the ministry.
. The cupboards and drawers in the kitchen all have kid-locks on them, except for the cupboard with the spacious though inaccessible inside which takes up that awkward corner space. This is Talmage’s cupboard. He sits or stands and plays with his things that are stored therein. His treasures include water bottles, plastic Gerber food packages (they function as great little tupperwares), a food masher handcrank, breastpump hoses and other stuff. It takes little time for him to spill his wealth out onto the kitchen floor. An amusing sequence can then ensue. He’ll step on one of the tiny, see-through plastic Gerber food package lids, which subsequently sticks to the bottom of his foot. When he takes another step, that foot now glissades along the linoleum as he struggles to balance himself and comprehend what’s happening.
Meet Beethoven
I’d only known the main theme before this point, but began to be
intimately familiar with it, at least the 4th movement (the only one which has any singing). I find it quite beautiful--and as we recall, Beethoven wrote this piece after having lost his hearing. I carpooled extended distances with friends for the rehearsals once or twice a week. We were on a tight schedule: show time in one month! The notes were coming (though way too high Meister B!), and I was slowly picking up German pronunciation, sorta.
The week of the performance arrived. Excitement was creeping in and Talmage was surely tired of hearing my practice CD for his every breakfast. Final rehearsal with the orchestra went well, we were sounding good--just keep your eyes on that conductor. And then... the night before the performance, I fell ill. We’re talking wasted, no-energy, I-can’t-sing ill. So set in sadness as I was lying in bed thinking of the choir and orchestra some miles away recreating Beethoven’s masterpiece for a packed auditorium.
However, there in bed the idea struck that I was approximating Beethoven’s own experience when his 9th premiered. He could only imagine the sound, hearing it in his head, but not with his ears. Freude!
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Muir Woods Weekend
Long time coming, Robin and I had signed up for the 25K trail run in Muir Woods, CA two years ago. Then surgeries and injuries forced perjuries and EnvrioSports graciously held our registration fees to a future event, this year.
Road trip to the Bay Area; hook up with friends who heroically handle hotel babysitting Talmage.... As I wound the Subaru through the foggy drizzle down to Stinson Beach on race morning, Robin and I exclaimed, “this is crazy!” --thinking of running 15.5miles in the cold rain with obscured scenery. But after a rousing refrain of “America the Beautiful” some 300 runners launched up the “Steep Ravine Trail” to wander into misty Muir Woods...
There’s something about running through beautiful scenery that thrills my soul. “The woods [were] lovely, dark, and deep...” and the rain quickly became an accent rather than an irritant. I “soaked it up” –all of it. Plus, I was feeling on top of my game and ran well (though definitely walked some stretches too).
Here are some of Robin’s words worth echoing:
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The first 3 miles were an uphill scramble (including up a 10-ft wooden ladder) to aid station number one. Lots of bottle-necking on the uphill, thankfully for me, as it modified the race-pace to a fast walk at many switchbacks. The rain was not so noticeable under the redwood canopy and as I began the gradual downhill descent after mile 3, with runners more spaced out now, lengthened stride pounding on soft pine needles, my grin betrayed my inward joy. It felt so good!!! The rain cleared up eventually. It was a beautiful run. I walked a lot on several other uphill stretches, but .. no matter. I was there for the scenery and the exercise. It was one of the most joyous, challenging races I've been in. Imagine coming out of the woods at mile 11 (or so) to find yourself at the top of a green, wildflower-bestudded (word? sp?) grassy meadow that overlooks the beach down below; the sky is clear-blue now, and the last 4 miles are all downhill. It was stunning. Briton agreed - we'll be back.
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Race over, it was time to enjoy friends and other sites. First priority was pizza-party (gimme calories!) and catch-up with friends; one couple from Palo Alto who also came up for the race, and the other couple with their two kids up a grand distance from LA... they’re our heroes!! It was fun to see them all again.
You’d never have guessed the rainy morning while gazing off the northern high hills with the Golden Gate Bridge in stark red stenciling across the sunbathing San Fran city. Wharf, Alcatraz, Exploratorium, TransAmerica Pyramid, the whole Bay scene in full view. Love it!
We took the longer way home to Oregon, up Hwy101 through all those Redwood Forests. Definitely worth touting in those patriotic hymns. Also found the town Talmage, CA 95481 along the way and did an obligatory stop and photo-shoot with the little guy, who btw was an excellent traveler all things considered.
Seems my annual habit of journeying to the Bay has picked up again. See you next year?
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Welcome to the Hotel… Wilde
[This story happened in the past, like most true stories do]
As new home owners, we are owners of home newifying projects. Our small entryway has a hardwood floor. It’s called hardwood because it’s hard to refinish yourself. Nevertheless, as a converted card-carrying library patron, Robin brought home the do-it-yurselfer VHS from the library. “That’s easy!” Well, we rented this hummer sander (vacuum cleaner-style dealie) and several hours and ounces of sawdust later found the floor pretty well stripped down to “natural” wood again. Hands and knees sandpaper action got the edges, corners, and wrists.
Step number next? The wood filler (Mincrap Woodfiller Especial). Robin started application numero uno one night after Talmage went down. Whoa, that’s some potent stuff. The fumes from this product are outrageous. We had fortunately turned off the heat/ventilation systems and shut Talmage’s door, blocking the seam with a towel. The rest of the doors in the house were unwittingly left open... Robin applied filler to about 5 square feet before calling it quits due to either her own respiration warning system or my incessant barking about how strong the fumes were.
Bedtime. I couldn’t sleep. I tried counting brain cells that I knew were dying with each breath, but that did no good. We were both completely under the covers, breathing through our pillows. Mind you this is after we’d left the front door and a large window open for ventilation (and yes, verified that Talmage’s room was still uncorrupted). So, January, the house is very cold inside now. How grateful I was that I’d picked up a space heater for Little T’s room just two days previous.
In times of desperation, we often jump on the first solution that pops into our brains, however uncalculated it is. I did. I flew out of bed to the closet, grabbed my mummy bag + foam pad and before taking another breath was out on the deck doing the “get-the-bag-open” dance in the freezing midnight moonlight. Done. Ah, warmth and fresh, clean air. Then of course conscience strikes… I’d totally ditched my wife. Just about then, the door opened and … [I become fuzzy on the details here –the fumes you know]
She reasoned, “Briton, shouldn’t we go sleep in Talmage’s room. Cause if we can’t sleep in there, then he shouldn’t be sleeping in there either.” She’s brilliant. So, we quickly slipped into his room with sleeping bags and crashed on the floor, and the three of us slept like babies.
The next day, Robin left early with Talmage to a friends house and a day full of activities away from the house. I got to work early and stayed late. That evening the fumes hadn't really improved. The cold, stagnant air of the day had done very little to usher the odor out. Our friends, the Wildes, graciously opened their home to us where we enjoyed a peaceful night's rest.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Peek-A-Boo
Voici some verdent shoots peeking out of this winter- wasted dirt clod blog... Spring arrives! We're happy to say we're happy and that Robin really did well choosing that blue pot for the prim roses on the front porch. She put the primroses in the blue pot as they weren't growing out of the porch, yet.
Talmage remains tubby and has grown so quickly this last month or so, sprouting spryness and cruising on his fours now, with quick pull-ups on any semi-stationary object. The hoot for us is his growl: he really is a little tiger, ripping off Grrr's and Rrrr's with intimidating intensity. Unfortunately, the main victim of his prowling is his own noggin, as he learns navigation and gravity. He just turned 9mo and loves lights and ceiling fans.
We just returned from a wonderful weekend in Utah to visit my dad who celebrated his 60th birthday. My family didn't know we were coming. The great fun was planting Talmage on the backyard grass and watching the grandparents discover him in utter surprise.
Here at the Hillsboro house we're trying to assess how to attack our lawn and other yardy enemies. We're also trying to maintain decent running schedules as a footrace in Muir Woods California approaches--heading down mid-April. Time filled flies, and any cracks are certainly stuffed lest the weeds win.


